Worked sucked ASS today! I got “jacked up” about something, that I think was almost all bunk! I’ll accept responsibility for a couple of things, but most of it was crap! When I tried to “explain my perspective”, I got sarcasm and a sanctimonious attitude. One of the big problems is that there are two adults in “charge”, but no one knows which one of them is in charge. One of the parents is sticking her nose into things, largely because she spends too much time hanging around the room, and her kid acts up something bad when she’s there, and she thinks it’s all funny and encourages him, by laughing at him. He doesn’t act like that when she’s not there. Then she complains about his behaviour!! If they want me to shadow this one child 24/7, then don’t have me doing the craft with 10 kids, don’t have me doing snacktime with the kids, etc. But as we all know the shit flows down the sewer pipe!

If the adults in “charge” would tell the parents not to arrive 15 minutes early while we’re still on our lunch break, bring your child to the room, drop them off, and LEAVE, don’t all hang around, for 10 minutes, letting the siblings play, visiting with us, etc, just drop off the kid and go home!!

I was so mad, I was nearly in tears for over an hour!! When I get that mad, I always end up like a big blubbering baby, so here I am, after this conversation is over (occured while I’m doing craft with 6 kids….. with the “other” teacher and aide in the room (apparently they didn’t hear it), I’m sitting there, trying not to cry like a big wuss, and trying to be all happy, pappy with the kids while we finished! As soon as I got done, I went to the washroom and literally slapped my face a few times, trying to get out of the “wanting to blubber phase!” Grrrr…. Fortunately we went outside next to play, so I could keep my big shades on and get my mind in “order”.

A couple of people asked me if I was okay, and all I could do was say, “NO!” and when asked to elaborate, I just said, “No…. but I’m too mad to talk about it right now!” It’s the closest I’ve ever come to walking out and not coming back! I’ll see how it goes over the next few days, and I’ll ask for a transfer to a school in my town if I don’t think it’s something that can be worked out.